Sunday, May 31, 2009

20 Days Until Summer and I Feel Like a Kid Again...

Summer is almost here, 20 days away. I have been getting a creeping feeling of being a teenager waiting for Summer break. There is also a very loud voice inside of me screaming for something magical to happen. The voice is far away in the back of my soul, but it is consuming. I remember being a teenager in high school and staying up late during the Summer to go outside and enjoy the stars in the sky, lay in my father's hammick, and walk to a tree I called "the magic tree". This would be before the neighborhood was fully developed. There was a single tree, I think it was an Oak tree...thing was massive and the trunk was thick. I'd walk down to the tree and imagine the fae folk dancing around it, and every so often I would bury items I had charged at the tree. I remember that feeling. So free, so at peace, once with the universe, something greater than human. Nothing compares to that feeling. Solitude, Summer, night, spirit. I feel it creeping up on my but I'm sorry to say life is different now than it was back then and I just don't think I can act on it. Maybe in a different way I could...a way that wouldn't lead to being found outside and questions about what I was up to. 

Come on Summer. I'm ready for you.